"Our hearts cannot grow stronger
without knowing the feeling of pain.
Just as wildflowers cannot stand tall
without the showers of rain"
- S.L. Gray
After struggling with Depression, Anxiety and Anorexia Nervosa, for over 10 years, my physical, emotional and mental health suffered dramatically. I destroyed my body for a peace of mind I never found. It's through these past experiences that I found my passion in holistic health and nutrition, to support others going through their own difficulties and challenges. I understand firsthand the harmful dangers and effects of any mental health illnesses, combined with a negative relationship with your body because I’ve been there. I've sat at rock bottom with tears streaming down my face wanting it all to end. I use these experiences to drive my passions, relate to clients and help whoever I can through education and vulnerability.
I’m not writing from a place of 100% recovery. I don’t personally believe anyone ever truly recovers from these illnesses. Mental health illnesses are about learning how to manage your thoughts and feelings, learning about the subconscious thought patterns that drive your behaviour and learning to create lifelong habits and rituals that set you up for happiness. I’m just like you, striving to live my life to the fullest and being the happiest I can be.
How Have I Reached This Point
Growing up my childhood was filled with family, friends, camping holidays and sports. I’ve grown up surrounded by a huge blended family, which I wouldn’t change for the world as it’s created such an amazing foundation for my life. Almost every day, I was either training or competing in basketball and netball. Naturally, fitness was a huge part of my life, however, nutrition definitely wasn’t as I lived off a standard Australian diet including many BBQ’s, cereal, choc-milk, yo-gos and vanilla slices.
Depression and Anxiety were the first mental illnesses I experienced and I honestly can’t tell you why this happened, as I’ve always looked back on my childhood as the BEST time of my life. Towards the end of 2007, my mum took me to see a naturopath because I was a completely different person; anxious, sad, moody, on edge… the opposite of the bubbly child I grew up as. After many different appointments, I was placed on antidepressants by my family doctor in 2008 which I was off and on for about 4 years.
I developed Anorexia Nervosa (AN) in 2009, however I say developed loosely because this was a combination of many factors and 2009 happened to be the year it became prominent in my life. I remember embarking on a typical calorie counting diet (a slippery slope to an eating disorder) and this paired with depression, anxiety, perfectionism and change created the perfect storm… Anorexia Nervosa. Living with AN definitely caused me to view food and nutrition in another light, I was obsessed in the unhealthiest way.
Since this time, nutrition has remained at the forefront of my mind and eventually, this led me to use this in a positive way.
I returned from a state netball trip in 2011 and gave up all sports. From then on, I dabbled in the gym and group fitness classes. However, it wasn’t until I attended my very first Yoga class in January 2015 that the course of my life changed forever. I was hooked and I dove right in attending around 5 classes a week of vinyasa. One year later I was beginning my teacher training and by April 2016 I was a qualified vinyasa yoga teacher. Yoga helped me restore the destructive relationship I'd created with my body, learning how to love what my body was capable of and motivating me to fuel and nourish it. My passion and desire to battle my inner demons intensified.
I was motivated to leave my Primary School Teaching studies and pursue a career I was passionate about as a Nutritionist. I began studying a Bachelor of Health Science (Clinical Nutrition and Dietetics) in May 2015 and fell in love with learning about a holistic lifestyle. I graduated as a Clinical Nutritionist (BHSc) in 2018 and have been consulting clients ever since. In the meantime, you'll find me either practising yoga, teaching yoga, cooking, drinking delicious coffees at my local cafe or having a wine with my girlfriends.